Y Friday, February 29, 2008
Post-work Syndrome
days been passing by.. since january to feburary, CNY, valentine's day etc.. all the events and festive.. with the daily invisible reminder that i'm enlisting into the army soon.. brings me to think about my life and all the memories when freedom was in my hands.
my parents and brother have been to bangkok. independence comes at a high price. its not easy up -keeping the house and trying to control a girl whose reaching her teens. like u know, views clashes and stuff. but at least, i tide it through it.. its funny at how it seems.. i always wanted freedom, but once given, u have a newer sense of 'weight' coming down on u. and thats responsibility. ur everry action affects the way ppl look at u and how u carry urself. its a whole new thing that we as teenager/young adults are given in such short hand of timing. like the saying goes, 'with action comes consequences'.
back to my main thought.. i've been wondering, wont it be nice to have someone by ur side, who shares ur joy, pain and views as you? i mean, havent we all experience times when we think that no one understands us..when, we really wish someone knows how we think, someone who will pat us or hug us and tell us everything will be alright? well, i think we all wish someone who would be with us, someone we can call 'dear'.. but where does it stand?
i once had a experience of this feeling first-hand. at least i got over it.. haha. u see, once i had a crush on this girl.. it was pretty random. so u know i got all really work up and stuff. so i tried to be present at every opportunity to be with her. and guess what, on a dinner date (well not a date, just a dinner thingy) she invited the guy she liked.. and guess what, to nudge me, she stepped on my foot. with heels. -.- oh well.. thn she jerk/tilt her head and eye's arrow to one corner, signaling me to a corner. she told me with her eyes still looking at him, that she likes him.. its a funny feeling. the girl u like, likes another guy and ask u, YOU for advice.. oh i be damn, i helped her. now, they're together. though she always say she owe me one.. i nvr really cared.. its over..
updates of my day today.. one word. boring.. it was really so lame.. woke up, brush teeth, and stare at the walls.. sighs. i'm becoming a old foggy. okay, i guess its time i stop.
its just me..
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