Y Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Hmm
much expected as i'd known. is it by human nature that we often do things even if we know that its pointless or hopeless?
i think we care too much abt trying to impress or leave a impression with others that we lose ourself in the midst of doing so. i'd probably gone insane reading the letter umpteen times.
i'd guess that was the only thing that occupy my head. or whatever is in it. throw a ball, toss it or fling it, i wont tell the diff. becos i'm all too busy to care abt what others do.
all i know now is, i'm sitting right infront of my com, wondering if i shld just imagine my past continuing.
and as the seconds tick away, i feel myself being pulled further and further away.
what had becos so close have become so distant.
what was within reach just turn to fog, like smoke, unable to grab and hold on tight.
its a human mind to make illusion/mirage or hallucinate things when we desire them so much. but part of ourselves know that its fake.
yet we continue to lie to ourself for fear of feeling hurt.
i guess i've to put up with the pain again.
being heartbroken is painful.
but we get used to it.
numb.
its just me.
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